Messed up

Hi there. It's been a very long time since I opened my blog. Sorry for the absent. I'm blogging from my phone so it's gonna be a simple post. This is the first, so I dont really know how to fully use it yet. And it's already 4 in the morning. Lol
Been busy with homework. High school gets to be stressful and not as I expected. It's super scary.. Is it just me?
Yesterday I had a bad day. And since I dont know who I shld talk to, I decided to write it here. Just to let it out a bit lol. Well, I'm really scared (like always) about my test result. My group's not doing really well. And in high school, scores is a really scary thing. Have to work hard on it from this day on. Sigh.
So many problems these days. I have no choice but to say that everything's gonna be alright.. *self-five*
How I wish I could run away from my life. But I know it's not the answer.
And I dont want to be a coward.

Hope everything gets better and I'll be strong enough to handle the pressure and solve my problems.

Sweet sweet time

Yo! lol

So.... Last saturday (June 9) my parents decided to treat my friends for a meal at Brothers cafe since I got the 1st rank, plus my friends had been asking for it, well played guys ! hahaha just kidding. The reason is to celebrate my birthday... not really celebrate though. Let's just say eating together.
And for the first time, I got lots of photos to share *excited*

Let it out !

Hi guys.
I'm not feeling well. I mean mentally. I feel empty. I know I shouldn't talk about this in my blog. But I dont know who I can talk to. I'm scared that I'll be a burden to them. And my friends have their own problems. And I just want to let it out. All of them. Scream until I faint. hahaha. It sounds crazy but I seriously need it right now. I bet all of you need it too. Yep. Life's hard. Please forgive me if you felt I was being a drama queen or sth.
It must be weird that I suddenly say sth like that. Sometimes I cant hide it you know. For me, being sad is wrong. So hiding it is the best choice. It's more simple that way, right? . But still, forcing myself is hard. I dont know what happened to me. It really sounds pathetic. I wish I could just run away for a couple of weeks. Let's be honest, everything would still be normal even if I gone. I often think about it, My parents have my sis, My friends have their own best friends..
Okayy maybe it sounds dramatic. But it's true. I know I'm the only one who can help myself. I just dont know how. I'm still trying.
I wish I could find some interesting things to do. So I can just focus to it. and leave out all the rest...

Finally I let it out a bit. fiuhh. Feel much better hahahhaa!


By the way, I got 1st rank in my class. I SHOULD be happy. I am but not that happy, I have reasons : First is because teachers will frequently call your name to answer their questions. Secondly, they will "insult" you if you dont do your homework just because you're the 1st rank. And I'm really lazy. Third, my parents' expectation will be higher. And so on. Ohh and the higher possibility moving to pluss-class. Believe me, I'm not excited.
 


I got no photos againn. Really sorry.
My faces is err. lol I dont know how some people can look so beautiful even in their weirdest pose ! And I dont have a self cam. -_-


Sooo... I drew something LOL
(I love 9gag !)

Maybe I shld draw sth in every post lol

Ohh, Do you guys know depapepe? If not, be sure to check them out. (:
Bye guys! Sorry for being weird

Thanks God !

I passed! thanks God!
fiuhh. All of my friends passed too! *excited*
I have to come to school again on monday to get my result. The problem is that it's at 8 a.m.. I usually wake up at around 1. afternoon. that's the earliest. (If I dont have any plan or I can sleep). Lately I got some trouble with sleeping. sighh. Dont know why. I always tell myself to sleep early everyday. But it never happened lol. And that's why I always skip my breakfast. I know it's bad.

I wore my school uniform again after a long time. It felt weird !
But some part of me really miss it hmm
Ohh! and my friends gave me presents for my birthday. (Thanks guyss!) It has passed (3 days ago which is may 30) but we only have the chance to meet today. Speaking of my birthday, well... I didnt celebrate it by throwing a party like that. Just went to have a dinner with family. As usual. But it's still great! <3 It's at Shanghai restaurant. :9

my birthday cake <3

I've been reading a novel lately. It's called I've Got Your Number by Sophie Kinsella. Havent finished it yet. But so far so good. hahaha. I really love the character! Poppy is just soo hilarious! lol


That's it for now~
byeee~ ^^

Go back in time.

Hi guys! Really sorry for the long absent. It's because I'm too lazy to type. hahahaha no kidding! I sleep for like 10 hours while on holiday. (except for that 1 day. I couldnt sleep at all -_-) and still feel sleepy and lazy lol. sighh..I'm too deeply in love with my bed. :')

 I got so much to tell! Hmm..where shld i begin...
Ohh! The farewell party! Speaking about it, I feel really nervous about the test result. I hope everybody pass!! My sis already know that she pass. So lucky! Cant wait for June 2~

Many things happened (on different day) so let's go back in time. And I'm gonna tell you 1 by 1 lol. This will probably be the longest post. hahahhaa

Back to the party lol It was held on May 12. At Aryaduta. I had so much fun! Couldn't stop eating! And then I realize it made me look really fat in my dress! hahahaha blame my curiosity. anyway, it was fantastic! really love the scenery. Too bad it was raining. At first we planned to held it outdoor but it started to rain, chairs and tables became wet. so..yeah.. And the live music is awesomee! My friends and I started to sing "Damn damn damn" along with the singer. hahahha.

By the way, Sylvia and I won the best dress along with Edward and Giorgio. Thanks guyss! <3 less than three, my friend, less than three :') lol I got an album. A strawberry shortcake one hahaha very cute! <3

say cheers! :D

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6 days after that, (May 18) Edward treated us to Wak Noer. hahaha. It's his birthday. \( ^ )/
The environment is super nice! Really love it !
Thank you veryvery muchh btw! ^^

After that, Valencia, Wenny and I went to Sun Plaza. The others went there too but we splitted up.
They watched Dark Shadow but we decided to watch Safe cause according to Valencia, her sister said that Safe is better. And Wenny love to watch action movies.
Safe is well.... not really good. I dont know is it just me... They said it's really awesome though. I thought I dont understand the movie or sth but it turns out that my sis had watched it too with her friends. And she said the same thing! But her friends said it's really awesome as well. lol

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Ohh! my sis bought this candy from KL. It's really good! not just the appearance, the taste is very good too!
It's Sticky <3

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On May 22, Sylvia treated us to Fountain lol  I love May! <3
Thanks snow white a.k.a bella a.k.a taecyeon's ! hahaha ^^
After having lunch, my friends and I went to karaoke at amazone lol
My fav is when we sang it's my life! hahahaha! best! \m/

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By the way, my knitting so far is well.... okay.  Just okay lol
I still have a long way to go! hwaiting!

That's all for today. fiuhhh~ pretty long huh lol
Night! (:

10

Hey guys.
It's so boring right now so I decided to post sth. lol how about my fav singer/band? Well,I have a lot! hmm.. I guess I'll just tell you 10 hahaha, By the way, it's not in order and the fav songs part, I'll just write 3 even though there's more. lol

1. CN BLUE Fav songs : In my head, Love light, Where you are

2. Maroon 5 Fav songs : She'll be loved, Won't go home without you, misery, Sunday Morning

3. Big Bang Fav songs : Day by day, Tonight, Blue

4. Jason Mraz Fav songs : Geek in the pink, Make it mine, I'm yours

5. Bruno Mars Fav songs : It willl rain, talking to the moon, count on me

6. Adele Fav songs : Someone like you, Rolling in the deep, Set fire to the rain

7. Kelly Clarkson Fav songs : Because of you, Stronger, Mr. know it all

8. Michael Buble Fav songs : Hollywood, Everything, Home

9. Jay Chou Fav songs : Rainbow, Fragrance of rice, Tui hou

10. Rihanna Fav songs : Take a bow, We found love, Umbrella

The avengers

It's 1 am right now and believe it or not, I already feel so sleepy. It's a good thing cause I dont have to force myself to sleep today *self-five*. But before I go to sleep, I wanna post sth... I just feel like it lol... Yeahh,I'm weird. And dont get me wrong, I love sleeping. and my bed. But sleeping late has become my habit....somehow...
And I decided to try changing my bad habit cause it's not good for health. Plus I dont have any reason to be awake at that time. Not anymore. Dont ask me why.
I like sleeping late though... for me, 12-4 in the morning is the best time of the day. lol

Some of my friends are more active around that time too, like me. yeah, the autis lol

Ohh, by the way, I just watched the avengers and it's AWESOMEEEE!!! Super Cool!!
Well doneee!~ \m/
and yeah, Thor's hair is fabulous! lol
I watched it at Hermes. The plaza hasn't finished yet but they'd opened the theatre.
It's the first time I went there and I loveee it. FINALLY!
I think it's the best in my country so far.

Back to the avengers, it's a pretty long movie. I watched it at 8:45 and finished aound 11. fiuhh.
AND Robin, I mean Cobie Smulders is on the avengers! beautiful as ever~
Ohh and my fav is iron mannnn. cause he's different lol


Sighh. I havent knit today. So tired right now. ergh.
It's going pretty well. But I still dont know if I'm doing it in the right way. Havent asked my teacher yet. It's been a week, but I plan to do it some more cause it's so short. I bet she'll think I'm lazy but actually I re-do it lots of time. sigh..


That's all for today.. Sorry I end it with a sigh lol
Gotta sleep now~
Night! <3

Awesome day

HI guys!
Today is awesome! Thanks to Andreas who invited me to his birthday party. I have soooo much fun there.
Too bad Andriani,Valencia,Sylvia,Angelica,Ivan,etc cant come. D:


It was at Lembur Kuring. The best part of it is the playground lol. After we finish our dinner, my friends decided to play swings. And of course I wanted to join but unfortunately I was wearing a skirt. so I just stood there and watched them have fun. sucks. But I was having a good time, watching them laughing together like that LOL
Will definitely miss this moment..
Please stay childish. and autis my awesome friends. :')
Love you guys~ <3


My sis is at brastagi right now with her friends. envyyyy.
My friends is planning to go there together. But my parents won't allowed me.... Because I'm still small... Sighh
and the only thing that I can do is just accept my destiny~


By the way, I just studied about knitting. And I love it!
It's tiring and need a lot of time, but it can make me forget about 'it' for awhile.
I'm making a scarf right now. but I don't know if I could finish it lol. I still have a lot more to do.
Wish me luck!
I really don't know what I'll do with it after (if) I finished. I live in a country which doesn't have winter season...
My hard work... *crying*
Oh well~ I can just look at it and feel proud hahaha
I've fulfill one of my to-do-list for holiday. Self-five!


I guess that's all for today.
Back to knitting <3

I'm Back!

Hey guys. It's been a while huh. The reason why I didn't post anything for a long time is well... I didn't feel like blogging. plus, I didn't have anything worth sharing. As you know, my life is incredibly boring.
I dont know what I shld do with my life anymore....

I'm on holiday right now. Hmmm, 2 months without school is going to be really sucks!

Yesterday I went to Sun Plaza after taking the exams. Hang out with friends sure is the best way to relieve stress. My friends and I don't hang out often because we're busy with our tuition. It's true.
I even had a tuition on sunday!
It was really fun by the way...and tiring! lol yesterday's great!
Furthermore, the album has finally arrived! It's much bigger than I expected. :')
I'm so excited!! Really satisfied with the album! ^^

I bought minhyuk's ver.

White day~

Yep. I change it again lol. I dont know if it's better or worse ._.
I think I shld add some pictures in my blog. But I didnt take any these days.
so...yeah...

Today is white day! A day full of love~<3
But for me, nothing really special about it. Cause I'm single O_O lol
But I get chocolates from my friends. AWESOME! Thanks Edward and Joandy. *big smile*
I'm so in love with chocolates~ <3

My friends make me realize how stupid I am today. They are so true. And I've decided to just let it flow. I havent come out with a clear answer yet but I'm sure I will. soon. My mind is so messed up right now! I seriously need a break. Just for a while though....

I'm so into big bang lately. (but cnblue is still the one lol. Cant wait for their comeback!)
Blue and Fantastic Baby (from the newest album), Lies, Let me hear your voice, Tonight and Day by day are my favourite lol (I just cant decide!)

Blue

I guess that's it for now ._.
this blog gets boring day by day huh -_____-
Maybe I shld delete it after I post sth better lol.
So... byebye then~

I'm singing my blueess~

Time sure flies by fast!

FINALLY!
exams are over! but not for long. I'm still gonna have my last exam as a 3rd year of junior high.
But until then, I can chill for a while. after all the stress that it caused me. It's time to indulge myself. <3

I have many things that I wanna do. But I dont have time or my friends. I really wanted to hang out with them on weekend. But I have course on sunday so the only choice I have is saturday. BUT again, my friends is busy with their courses. it sucks. It's been so long since I watched movies in theatre.
I wish I could go out alone sometimes. Just me. It's weird isn't it? yepp. I'm a loner. (bgm : I'm a loner- cnblue) lol
But you know, my parents wont allow it. they afraid i'll be kidnapped by some stranger. lol. I mean,who wants to kidnapped me? that makes no sense at all. And i'm already 15. But I understand, it's their way of showing that they care. but please just once ._.
It's boring to stay at home. I got nothing to do. I just finished watching big bang theory season 5 (the one that I had) and it's awesome! I'm so digging the shamy <3  sheldon is just so cute and sweet~

By the way, my friends are planning to go to Berastagi for holiday. I really wanted to gooo. I havent ask my parents yet. Too afraid of rejection. lol. I know I shld at least try. There's no harm in asking anyway. hmm... Please give me a few days.........but I'm 100% sure they wont allow it. -___-

Cant believe i'll be entering high school few months from now. Time sure flies so fast. I feel old O_O
they said high school is the best years of your life. I'm not sure. Doesnt that mean it's closer to the time when me and my friends have to grow apart?....

A few months from now, my sister will be attending college in a different country. To telll you the truth, I'm scared. I mean she's the one who always cheer me and my family up. okayy, I admit it'll be so lonely without her at home. (please dont tell her if you read this)

I think I shld stop typing. It's almost 12 now. and I have school tomorrow. better sleep early before I get dark circle under my eyes. Goodnight (:

My return.

so what do you think?

gosh! I dont know what I should do with my blog. I've abandoned it for a few months now.
And let's admit it. my life sucks. I have nothing to share about it. hmm...better start to get some life.

I have some important things to do. But I'm not in a mood to do it. so I decided to post something.
and here I am, sitting in front of my laptop to kill some time.
Tomorrow I have a test. but I haven't really studied yet. Maybe I'll study tonight

today sucks. the songs in my ipod is gone. all of them. even they decided to leave me. -___-
okay I better stop before I started to get emotional and share all my problems in my blog.
lol.

I realize how much I've grown. I've changed now. In a better way. I understand more about life. You just have to do your best and dont regret it afterwards. the rest is not for you to decide. what will happen will happen so dont worry about it. Just saying ._. lol


hmmm I guess that's it for now. Have. To. Force. Myself. To. Study. D: lol
Have a nice day (: