Messed up

Hi there. It's been a very long time since I opened my blog. Sorry for the absent. I'm blogging from my phone so it's gonna be a simple post. This is the first, so I dont really know how to fully use it yet. And it's already 4 in the morning. Lol
Been busy with homework. High school gets to be stressful and not as I expected. It's super scary.. Is it just me?
Yesterday I had a bad day. And since I dont know who I shld talk to, I decided to write it here. Just to let it out a bit lol. Well, I'm really scared (like always) about my test result. My group's not doing really well. And in high school, scores is a really scary thing. Have to work hard on it from this day on. Sigh.
So many problems these days. I have no choice but to say that everything's gonna be alright.. *self-five*
How I wish I could run away from my life. But I know it's not the answer.
And I dont want to be a coward.

Hope everything gets better and I'll be strong enough to handle the pressure and solve my problems.

Sweet sweet time

Yo! lol

So.... Last saturday (June 9) my parents decided to treat my friends for a meal at Brothers cafe since I got the 1st rank, plus my friends had been asking for it, well played guys ! hahaha just kidding. The reason is to celebrate my birthday... not really celebrate though. Let's just say eating together.
And for the first time, I got lots of photos to share *excited*

Let it out !

Hi guys.
I'm not feeling well. I mean mentally. I feel empty. I know I shouldn't talk about this in my blog. But I dont know who I can talk to. I'm scared that I'll be a burden to them. And my friends have their own problems. And I just want to let it out. All of them. Scream until I faint. hahaha. It sounds crazy but I seriously need it right now. I bet all of you need it too. Yep. Life's hard. Please forgive me if you felt I was being a drama queen or sth.
It must be weird that I suddenly say sth like that. Sometimes I cant hide it you know. For me, being sad is wrong. So hiding it is the best choice. It's more simple that way, right? . But still, forcing myself is hard. I dont know what happened to me. It really sounds pathetic. I wish I could just run away for a couple of weeks. Let's be honest, everything would still be normal even if I gone. I often think about it, My parents have my sis, My friends have their own best friends..
Okayy maybe it sounds dramatic. But it's true. I know I'm the only one who can help myself. I just dont know how. I'm still trying.
I wish I could find some interesting things to do. So I can just focus to it. and leave out all the rest...

Finally I let it out a bit. fiuhh. Feel much better hahahhaa!


By the way, I got 1st rank in my class. I SHOULD be happy. I am but not that happy, I have reasons : First is because teachers will frequently call your name to answer their questions. Secondly, they will "insult" you if you dont do your homework just because you're the 1st rank. And I'm really lazy. Third, my parents' expectation will be higher. And so on. Ohh and the higher possibility moving to pluss-class. Believe me, I'm not excited.
 


I got no photos againn. Really sorry.
My faces is err. lol I dont know how some people can look so beautiful even in their weirdest pose ! And I dont have a self cam. -_-


Sooo... I drew something LOL
(I love 9gag !)

Maybe I shld draw sth in every post lol

Ohh, Do you guys know depapepe? If not, be sure to check them out. (:
Bye guys! Sorry for being weird

Thanks God !

I passed! thanks God!
fiuhh. All of my friends passed too! *excited*
I have to come to school again on monday to get my result. The problem is that it's at 8 a.m.. I usually wake up at around 1. afternoon. that's the earliest. (If I dont have any plan or I can sleep). Lately I got some trouble with sleeping. sighh. Dont know why. I always tell myself to sleep early everyday. But it never happened lol. And that's why I always skip my breakfast. I know it's bad.

I wore my school uniform again after a long time. It felt weird !
But some part of me really miss it hmm
Ohh! and my friends gave me presents for my birthday. (Thanks guyss!) It has passed (3 days ago which is may 30) but we only have the chance to meet today. Speaking of my birthday, well... I didnt celebrate it by throwing a party like that. Just went to have a dinner with family. As usual. But it's still great! <3 It's at Shanghai restaurant. :9

my birthday cake <3

I've been reading a novel lately. It's called I've Got Your Number by Sophie Kinsella. Havent finished it yet. But so far so good. hahaha. I really love the character! Poppy is just soo hilarious! lol


That's it for now~
byeee~ ^^

Go back in time.

Hi guys! Really sorry for the long absent. It's because I'm too lazy to type. hahahaha no kidding! I sleep for like 10 hours while on holiday. (except for that 1 day. I couldnt sleep at all -_-) and still feel sleepy and lazy lol. sighh..I'm too deeply in love with my bed. :')

 I got so much to tell! Hmm..where shld i begin...
Ohh! The farewell party! Speaking about it, I feel really nervous about the test result. I hope everybody pass!! My sis already know that she pass. So lucky! Cant wait for June 2~

Many things happened (on different day) so let's go back in time. And I'm gonna tell you 1 by 1 lol. This will probably be the longest post. hahahhaa

Back to the party lol It was held on May 12. At Aryaduta. I had so much fun! Couldn't stop eating! And then I realize it made me look really fat in my dress! hahahaha blame my curiosity. anyway, it was fantastic! really love the scenery. Too bad it was raining. At first we planned to held it outdoor but it started to rain, chairs and tables became wet. so..yeah.. And the live music is awesomee! My friends and I started to sing "Damn damn damn" along with the singer. hahahha.

By the way, Sylvia and I won the best dress along with Edward and Giorgio. Thanks guyss! <3 less than three, my friend, less than three :') lol I got an album. A strawberry shortcake one hahaha very cute! <3

say cheers! :D

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6 days after that, (May 18) Edward treated us to Wak Noer. hahaha. It's his birthday. \( ^ )/
The environment is super nice! Really love it !
Thank you veryvery muchh btw! ^^

After that, Valencia, Wenny and I went to Sun Plaza. The others went there too but we splitted up.
They watched Dark Shadow but we decided to watch Safe cause according to Valencia, her sister said that Safe is better. And Wenny love to watch action movies.
Safe is well.... not really good. I dont know is it just me... They said it's really awesome though. I thought I dont understand the movie or sth but it turns out that my sis had watched it too with her friends. And she said the same thing! But her friends said it's really awesome as well. lol

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Ohh! my sis bought this candy from KL. It's really good! not just the appearance, the taste is very good too!
It's Sticky <3

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On May 22, Sylvia treated us to Fountain lol  I love May! <3
Thanks snow white a.k.a bella a.k.a taecyeon's ! hahaha ^^
After having lunch, my friends and I went to karaoke at amazone lol
My fav is when we sang it's my life! hahahaha! best! \m/

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By the way, my knitting so far is well.... okay.  Just okay lol
I still have a long way to go! hwaiting!

That's all for today. fiuhhh~ pretty long huh lol
Night! (:

10

Hey guys.
It's so boring right now so I decided to post sth. lol how about my fav singer/band? Well,I have a lot! hmm.. I guess I'll just tell you 10 hahaha, By the way, it's not in order and the fav songs part, I'll just write 3 even though there's more. lol

1. CN BLUE Fav songs : In my head, Love light, Where you are

2. Maroon 5 Fav songs : She'll be loved, Won't go home without you, misery, Sunday Morning

3. Big Bang Fav songs : Day by day, Tonight, Blue

4. Jason Mraz Fav songs : Geek in the pink, Make it mine, I'm yours

5. Bruno Mars Fav songs : It willl rain, talking to the moon, count on me

6. Adele Fav songs : Someone like you, Rolling in the deep, Set fire to the rain

7. Kelly Clarkson Fav songs : Because of you, Stronger, Mr. know it all

8. Michael Buble Fav songs : Hollywood, Everything, Home

9. Jay Chou Fav songs : Rainbow, Fragrance of rice, Tui hou

10. Rihanna Fav songs : Take a bow, We found love, Umbrella

The avengers

It's 1 am right now and believe it or not, I already feel so sleepy. It's a good thing cause I dont have to force myself to sleep today *self-five*. But before I go to sleep, I wanna post sth... I just feel like it lol... Yeahh,I'm weird. And dont get me wrong, I love sleeping. and my bed. But sleeping late has become my habit....somehow...
And I decided to try changing my bad habit cause it's not good for health. Plus I dont have any reason to be awake at that time. Not anymore. Dont ask me why.
I like sleeping late though... for me, 12-4 in the morning is the best time of the day. lol

Some of my friends are more active around that time too, like me. yeah, the autis lol

Ohh, by the way, I just watched the avengers and it's AWESOMEEEE!!! Super Cool!!
Well doneee!~ \m/
and yeah, Thor's hair is fabulous! lol
I watched it at Hermes. The plaza hasn't finished yet but they'd opened the theatre.
It's the first time I went there and I loveee it. FINALLY!
I think it's the best in my country so far.

Back to the avengers, it's a pretty long movie. I watched it at 8:45 and finished aound 11. fiuhh.
AND Robin, I mean Cobie Smulders is on the avengers! beautiful as ever~
Ohh and my fav is iron mannnn. cause he's different lol


Sighh. I havent knit today. So tired right now. ergh.
It's going pretty well. But I still dont know if I'm doing it in the right way. Havent asked my teacher yet. It's been a week, but I plan to do it some more cause it's so short. I bet she'll think I'm lazy but actually I re-do it lots of time. sigh..


That's all for today.. Sorry I end it with a sigh lol
Gotta sleep now~
Night! <3